CALL FOR LOVE - Call for Love March 14/12

It was in March one year ago that Call for Love was born out of the desire to unite in the common goal of bringing cleansing thoughts of love to the proceedings of the trial that was pending at that time.   We spent quite a few months with that as our focus, and we were successful in our efforts to help each other though that difficult time.  Since then, we have continued with our devotions, without a particular agenda, each of us expressing ourselves as we have been inspired.
We have a diverse group of people here, from all around the world, and I am wondering if it is time for us to join our love once again in a united focus.  There are many worthy causes and people who are in need of loving energetic support.  Michael asked us to love and help all the children all the days of our existence, and I was imagining us sending love to the children of the world.  Maybe choosing a country, or an area, or even a particular hospital or group to focus our loving and healing energy for a period of time.  It could be a week, two weeks, or a month at a time.   Even if we posted a prayer or information at the beginning of the time period, and continued to use that as our focal point, it would not need to take much time, and of course we will still post our other thoughts, videos and pictures as we do now.

We are all busy, and there is much being done in Michael's name.  If we each have a spiritual practice of some kind, and choose to add a united focus for even a few minutes a day, I think it will make a difference and help to heal the world and help the children, as Michael asked us to do.  I would certainly be willing to do this on my own, and share with you, if it is not what the whole group is interested in.
Please let me know how you feel about this idea, or if there is something else that is of interest to you as our possible new focus.
I have been so honored to be a part of this group for the past year, it is always they first place I come when I open my computer each day, even if I don't always comment or read every article or watch every video, I love being part of such a loving, positive group of people.  Thank you all so much.

Beginner's Luck

As someone who was only awakened to the truth of Michael after he was gone from the physical world, I have written about the guilt involved with this and I have come to the conclusion that it must have been meant to be that way.  There must have been some kind of veil hiding the truth from me, because otherwise how could I have missed it?  How could I have been the only one who had never heard Man in the Mirror, or Earth Song?  Or seen any of Michael's short films?  Having come to some sort of peace with this over that last 2 1/2 years, I still have not been able to figure out WHY there had to be this veil.  This week, I have had some insights about the answer to this question.  


It's sort of like the first time someone goes bowling.  They don't know how to bowl, it looks pretty easy, just roll the ball down the floor and hit the pins.  The person knows that they don't know, they have no hangups about the strategy, rules, pitfalls of bowling, so they just throw the ball down and get a strike.  This is known as beginner's luck.  The beginner knows that they don't know, so they just do it.


My theory is that this is what happened with me and Michael (as well as many others, but I am using me as an example).   The lack of knowledge I had about him and the events of his life, and all the judgements and hangups that go along with that, in a way made me an ideal candidate to do the job for him that is mine to do.  I was a clean slate because I hadn't gone through the ups and downs of his life with him, and formed opinions about the things that had happened and the people that were involved.  This was important to the writing of Ever After as a straightforward, innocent childlike book.  I didn't know how to write and publish a book.  I only knew that I wanted to do it, that he wanted me to do it, so I just believed it and I did it.  Each step along the way, I wasn't afraid in the least.  My lack of experience protected me from the fear of making a mistake.  It was the same when I decided to speak about Michael at my church.  Being my first and only public speaking experience, I just did it.  


There are people who were there for Michael while he was here, loving him, supporting him, and learning from him all those years when I was oblivious.  I am still disappointed that I missed out on so much during the 50 years that we were both here together, but I understand that being oblivious was necessary for me to play my part the best way possible.  It was the least I could do for Michael.   

Oh Those Eyes! Call for Love devotion February 28

When I was learning about Michael, I remember watching the video of the 1984 Grammys when he took off his glasses.  When he took them off and looked, just for a moment so that we could see his eyes, I felt like I had been hit in the stomach with a baseball bat (and I know what that feels like because it happened to me once).  I couldn't breathe, my heart was pounding.  What WAS that?  I replayed the clip until I couldn't take it anymore.

  I remembered reading in Moonwalk that he said he wore glasses because he needed something between him and all the people and cameras.  He felt too exposed without the glasses on.  When I saw those melty eyes that contained the wisdom of the ages and every secret any of us has to keep, I could understand why he didn't let everyone see them.

Last night I read in Be Love Now, the description of Ram Dass' Guru's eyes  "Only once when I was with him did he open is eyes fully and look directly into mine.  The power of those eyes could take you into full samadhi  (bliss). But to do that prematurely wouldn't liberate anyone; it would just create another high, so he masked that power.  People couldn't bear that force, so he mostly kept his eyes half closed behind those long lashes."

Today I found out that it was on February 28, 1984 that he won the 8 Grammy awards, so I decided to write about this as my devotion.  Or did Michael decide it for me I wonder?  Enjoy this most beautiful clip of this most beautiful man.


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My Guru Michael

This is a quote from the book Be Love Now.  This book is by Ram Dass, detailing his relationship with his Guru, Maharaj-ji, and much of it describes what we are experiencing with Michael.  I have changed a few words only to leave out the personal references.

"In a way a being like that is everywhere you think of him.  He is, and in a funny way there's nothing you can say he isn't.  He has been know to show up in many places simultaneously, to appear and disappear.
He can be in thousands and thousands of places.  Many people have visions of him, dream about him, have visits from him, see him or remember him in a way that's very vivid - and in each case he IS with them.  Or an aspect of him is there, and the aspects can be as many as there are thoughts.  A realized being can send out his or her thought form, which is an aspect of that being, and that thought form takes on reality.  It becomes manifest somewhere and is truly seen by the person having the vision, dream or even ordinary waking consciousness.
The quieter your mind is, the more open you are to that meeting with the guru in the heart.  Your thought brings the guru to you the moment that thought is pure enough, intent enough, single-minded enough."

I know some of you have read, or are reading this book.  I do not feel the need to analyze the details of how the universe works, but I can relate to the experience that is described here, and throughout the book, and I know it is the same as what many of us experience with Michael.

Soul Sisters

We have different backgrounds, different experiences

Yet we have the same feelings, desires, thoughts

No need to speak, we understand each other

Yet we have so much to share, the words flow without effort

We are one

Yet this oneness brings out our individuality

It is a beautiful blend 

of support and love,

encouragement and fun

Her beauty makes me feel beautiful

She sees me as I am without judgement

I like the me I see through her eyes

She listens

She has faith in me

She has my back

We are limitless and free

Together we find joy,

Share sorrow and frustration,

We laugh, we cry,

we grow, we experience

unconditional love

Thank you Michael

for bringing us together 

Michael who?

On Sunday evening I attended a wine and cheese party at a family friend's house with my husband and 14 year old.  This family has 5 siblings, all about my age, 2 lawyers, 1 doctor, 1 commercial real estate developer, and a musical production director.  All very successful.  I am not comfortable in social situation such as this, and I felt very out of place and alone, along with my teenage daughter who was even more uncomfortable than I was.  I answered questions about our business, and personal life, and decided that if I were to tell them anything about the real me, the one who lives and loves Michael every minute of my life, they would definitely think I was completely off my rocker!  I mentioned that I went to L.A. in January, but not why I went or what I did.

When we got home, the Grammy's were on, and I felt sad that Michael will never be there again, the music world seems to be moving on.

I woke up on Monday, feeling depressed and miserable.  I was wondering if Michael would gradually be forgotten, people like me would fade away, nothing would really change.  It was an awful feeling.  Driving my daughter to school, I asked her, "What if the world forgets about Michael, and never catches on to what he really was about?"   Since she was a captive audience, I continued, "Last night I couldn't really mention Michael to those people, they wouldn't have understood me."  Then I heard myself say, "But I don't really know that do I?   If I mentioned him, they might have said, 'I grew up singing and dancing to Michael, I love him.'  Or the musical director might have said that Michael was the reason he decided to follow that career.  Since I didn't give them a chance, I might have missed out on making a connection or sharing Michael's message with someone."
My daughter said, "Wow, that story sure didn't end up where I thought it was headed!"
I said, "I know, I hadn't thought of that at all before I said it."
It wasn't that the world would forget Michael, but that I had denied him during that party.  I held back, because I didn't want to be uncomfortable talking about him with someone who might not understand.  By doing that I had missed the opportunity to share Michael with others, and to be myself.  This was the real cause of my morning depression.  I had let myself and him down by not being true to who I am.  This doesn't mean I should have related all the details of my pilgrimage to LA last month, but I could have at least been forthcoming and honest about where my true interest and direction lies.

Whenever I do not say yes to my heart, no matter how hard it might seem to be to do at the time, I can feel my energy lower.  When I stay true to my feelings, there is no limit to the bliss that fills me up.  This is a lesson I will remember.  There will be times when this situation arises again, and I know I will not let it pass me by again.

I'm sorry Michael.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.  I love you.

He Sees the Me I Want to Be

My life is divided into two

Before Michael, I was afraid

Since I met Michael, I am fearless

Before Michael, I felt alone, even when surrounded by people

Since I met Michael, I am never alone,

Before Michael, I searched for the meaning of life

Since I met Michael, I am filled with purpose

Before Michael, I was selfish and self-centered

Since I met Michael, other people's feelings have become important to me 

Before Michael, I wondered what love was

Since I met Michael, love spills from me without effort

Before Michael, I thought truth was in what I saw

Since I met Michael, I know truth is in what I feel

Before Michael, I took things for granted

Since I met Michael, I appreciate the tiniest of blessings

Before Michael, I was lost

Since I met Michael, I am found

Thank you, dearest Michael for seeing the me I want to be

and for your many blessings

I am yours