Every Day Create your MICHAELstory

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C o-Create

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A wesome

E verlasting 

L egacy

This week I have been listening to the HIStory album over and over, whenever I have been in my car, which is a lot!  I have to admit that this is one album I have not listened to as much as the others.  I found the songs just so SAD.  About causes and situations that need so much work, Little Susie, Earth Song, Scream, Stranger in Moscow, Tabloid Junkie, they all ripped my heart out, and I just didn't want to face these realities.   This week has been a whole new awakening.  These songs are so BEAUTIFUL, I can't get enough of them.  But History  - that is the one that really got to me.  It is the Answer to the other songs which point out the tragedies of the world.

Every day create your history

Every path you take you're leaving your legacy

Every soldier dies in his glory

Every legend tells of conquest and liberty

Don't let no one get you down

Keep movin' on higher ground

Keep flying until

You are the king of the hill

No force of nature can break

Your will to self motivate

She say this face that you see

Is destined for history

All nations sing

Let's harmonize all around the world

I realize we have to face the tragedies if we want to heal them.  It's ok to FEEL.  It took Michael Jackson to have the compassion and vision to look at difficult situations and bring them to light in his music.  I have been cowardly in avoiding what I don't want to look at, for my own comfort.  If I didn't look at it, I wouldn't have to do anything about it.  There are too many people like that in the world, and I don't want to be one of them anymore.

Whatever I am doing each day, is what my life is made of.  It is a long string of pearls and each one is another opportunity to create. There is another one, and a fresh start, each morning.  One middle aged woman is not going to solve all the problems, but she can handle whatever is in front of her to deal with, with as much love and compassion and vision as she has learned from Michael Jackson.  

CFL Devotion November 9 - Michael and Me

"People sit around the table and pray - and that's beautiful, but to DO something is the thing, you have to ACT."   


These words of Michael's have been haunting me lately.  I have been wondering what it is I am supposed to be doing.  What is the point of this journey I am on?  Am I meant to be spending my time on line looking at pictures of Michael, watching videos of him, missing him, talking about him, demanding justice for him?  Or is there more?  Yesterday I found myself, for the first time, wondering if I should go back to being "normal".  It seemed to me that I was kidding myself, maybe making this whole connection with Michael up.  Is he really still around?  Looking around the world, it seems that nothing is getting any better.  I have become so sensitive to the pain, that I can not even watch a bit of news, or a program about animals without it affecting me for days.  Seeing a mother yelling at her children in the market makes me fight back tears.  What is going on?  I never used to be this way.  I had been living in my own little world, maybe a little bored, but content.  Now the weight of the world is on my shoulders and it is just too much!  Better to go back to the way I was before I met Michael.


Luckily, I talked to my beautiful friend, Siren, about my feelings, and she immediately understood and talked to me, without any judgement, only love and understanding, as well as total confidence that we are not making this up, and there is a perfect plan that is unfolding.   Earlier, I had read Heaven's latest post on her HeavenLeigh Thoughts blog, and I went back to read it again.  This is the part that stood out for me:
 I have transformed to a place where you miss me, yet I am embedded in your thoughts and movements in a new and spectacular way. Fusion of spirit...no time...no separation. In a way it seems I am not with you, for I am now in you. 


In thinking about this as a message from Michael, (although Heaven does not say it is), everything suddenly became much clearer to me.  On that day in 2009 when I was "struck" by Michael's love, could it have been a merging of souls?  I became bigger, because a part of him was now a part of me, and he became bigger because I had become an extention of his love.  This would explain the change in how I viewed the world.  It was almost like I was seeing it from his eyes, and my continuing and growing compassion and love for all people, animals and the earth seem to be more typical of Michael, than the me I used to be.  If you multiply this by the number of people who have been affected by Michael, it would seem that we really are one, and he is here, through us.  Instead of waiting for Michael to let me know he is here, asking him what to do, needing him to take care of me, wanting the physical Michael back, although I never knew him then, this new perspective gives me the confidence and determination to BE what Michael would have me be.  I will know what that is, because he is now creating his dreams, with me, through me, as me.   It has been happening for two and a half years already, I just didn't know it.  My little book, Ever After, is a creation of Michael's and mine, together, as a gift to the world.  Neither one of us could have done it without the other.  My thinking has been much too small, and now I feel that a whole new way of thinking has opened up for me to grow, to be who I really am, to share the truth of Michael with whoever may be listening.  This does not mean that I won't be loving pictures and videos and music of Michael's, because his energy is still there for us, but I won't be thinking he is separate from me anymore.  And I definitely don't want to go back to being "normal"

Call for Love Devotion November 2 - Immortal

On November 4, 2010 I bought tickets for my husband, my daughter and myself to see the Immortal Tour show.  Last night was the day I had been waiting for, for three days less than a year.  I am not going to describe the show here, as I am sure many of you will be seeing it soon.

As I was sitting in my seat, in a city three hours from my home, I was looking around at the people and wondering how many of them were discovering Michael for the first time, right at that moment.  There had to be at least a few.  How could anyone hear that voice, that message, that creative genius with the heart of an angel and love for every life on the planet, and not be affected.  Personally, I was overwhelmed by the respect and love that was being shown to Michael.  It was not only about the music, but great care was taken to show the heart of the man who graced us by giving us everything he had, for 40+ years.  Being Canadian, I am a great fan of all Cirque du Soleil productions, and I am proud that their genius combined with Michael's genius to create such a spectacular tribute that will last forever.

It was beautiful, magical, incredible, and it made me love him even more.  I read a quote that was one of many in the giant program.
  "Since we are given the gift of life, it should be our persistent endeavor to immortalize ourselves no matter what field of endeavor we choose."  Michael Jackson.
Then I remembered,  that is what it's all about.  Michael's dream is coming true with the creation of this tour.  The Immortal Tour.