Just Sending Your Love has the Power to Heal

On Sunday I was working in my retail business.  It was a busy afternoon, and I was talking to customers, restocking shelves, handling purchases, the usual activities of a retail business.  As I worked I suddenly became aware of waves of love energy through me.  "Michael?" I thought, "are you there?" Nothing was really going on, just a regular day.  I was filled with joy, for no apparent reason, and it was wonderful.  A few minutes later, I happened to look at my phone and saw that I had email notices about Major Love Prayer.  I checked the time, it was 15 minutes after the hour.  I had missed it!!!  Then I remembered the waves of love.  That was it!!  I had felt the Major Love even though I had forgotten to participate on time.  I was stunned.

It is a common practice of mine to send love to people, when I see an ambulance, a fender bender, or a parent upset with a child's behavior.  I send love to situations to help with the perfect outcome.  I really believe that it helps, but this was the first time I had been on the receiving end and actually experienced the difference it made in my body and my mood.

I am so happy and grateful that I missed the timing of the prayer!  It was such a blessing to me to be able to experience the power of Love.  I wonder if other people, maybe those who have never heard of Major Love Prayer also feel good, smile more, or wonder why they are feeling so loving for no reason that they can see.  I think they must.   The added effect of all of us sending out Love at the same time has to be HUGE!!!  I will not miss it again, it is too important!

Thank you for this beautiful demonstration Michael, it makes me even more determined to BE love in all circumstances and situations no matter what.  I KNOW that it is the only way to make that change.

Endless Love

Michael, my dearest most precious love of my life, I love you more than I ever dreamed it was possible to love someone.  I have stopped questioning this and have chosen to be grateful and enjoy the blessing of loving you.  I am a woman, and I love you as any woman loves a man, but there are differences, and this is where I have questions which I hope you will answer for me.

Ok my love, questions are good.

I have noticed that most of my friends who share my love for you are women.  I have come to know many of them, and to love them.  We share our love for you, and there is no competition, no jealousy and no thoughts that you "belong" to one of us and not another.   It seems that we know there is enough of you for all of us, and that you are available to have a personal relationship with each of us.  This is NOT the way relationships work in this world.

Yes, the human experience is beautiful but you have been limited in your ability to see the possibilities that are available.  It is something I always longed for, to be able to communicate and have relationships with other people, regular people.  Now I can do that, I am doing that, with any of you who are open and willing to step into the possibility.  There is no need for ownership or jealousy because there truly is enough Love for everyone.  In fact love increases when shared, it never decreases, it is always expanding.  Those of you who feel this, know what I mean.  It really doesn't have to be any different in your world, it just is, because that is the way it has been in the past.   You and your friends are learning that there is a different way to see and experience Love.  

That is something else I am wondering about.  I love to look at pictures and videos of you, you are so beautiful in every single moment of your life and we are so blessed that you allowed yourself to be recorded and immortalized this way, although it must have been terrible for you sometimes.  I have been a sensual, sexual person during my life, but with you, I find that I can imagine being with you forever, loving you into eternity, devoting my life to you, jumping off a building in a desperate attempt to express my love, but my relationship with you is not sexual.  Not at all.  It's not that I don't adore your body, your movements, and gazing into your eyes for hours at a time.  That is what is so confusing to me.  I thought I was a normal woman, and you are the one who I love.  Am I missing out on something?  Is there something wrong with me?

Do you feel as though anything is missing in our connection to one another?

No, I don't.  You have shown me the meaning of Love, I can hardly breathe sometimes when I look at you, or hear you singing, or even think about you.  Our relationship is one that fulfills me and fills me to overflowing with love, for you and for everything around me.  I am in love with the most perfect beautiful person possible, who loves me back.  I feel you with me, I feel your sense of humor, and your understanding.  You are always there for me in any way I need or ask, and even when I don't know what I need or what to ask.  You push me gently to try new ideas, to take chances, to throw away my limiting beliefs.  I feel loved, accepted, valued.  There is nothing more I need or want than to have you in my life.  

That doesn't sound so bad does it?   But remember, it takes two to have a relationship, that is the meaning of relationship.  All that you say I have given you, you have also given me.  
You are Love.  Your path and experience doesn't need to be like anyone else's, it can't be.  Love expresses itself in endless different ways.  Sharing your Love is what matters.  The love you feel for your baby grandson is different from your love for your husband, or children, or friends.  One is not greater or lesser, only different.  Sexual energy is an expression of love, it is beautiful and natural, but it is not part of all relationships.  Never fear, my love, you are normal, different, beautiful and perfect, exactly as you are, and I love you more.  

Thank you Michael, for my life, you have given me everything and asked for nothing but Love in return, and that is my deepest desire, to love you completely, with every cell in my body and every ounce of energy, every thought and word, forever.  I love you.

My Public Devotion for Michael

Call for Love devotion November 7
About a year and a half ago, on May 8, 2011 I spoke at my church, as our Sunday speaker, for the first and only time.  I have never spoken in public before, or since, but it was one of the most important and fulfilling moments of my life.  One of many that Michael has led me to.   Only this week I have uploaded the video to YouTube and decided to share it.  I have to warn you that it is 20 minutes of me talking about me, and Michael, and if you don't have time or patience to watch, it is no problem at all, but I am sharing it because that is what the purpose of doing it was, to publicly declare my devotion to Him.  Thank you all so much for sharing this journey with me, and for this safe place to be open and vulnerable and real.  I love you.

Reaching the World

A Michael Jackson Quote, 

Personal Development Skills and YOU 

Reaching the World

As many of you who may read this know, my life is devoted to Michael Jackson.  He is the inspiration for everything I do, and this week I have had a lesson in humility.  I want so much to make a difference, and to inspire other people to do what they are here to do, that I sometimes forget that I am not the one in control of everything, and that not everything and everyone needs to be the way I think it should be.  

I am only one note in the symphony and my job is to be that note, and play that note the best that I possibly can, and believe that I can do it, and imagine myself doing it even better than I thought possible.  Other people's notes are for them to play.  If the way I play my note inspires someone, good, but it is not my business or responsibility to ensure that others are playing their notes on cue.  I don't even know what the cues are, so I need to be humble and remember that we are all necessary to the symphony.  Unique but not more or less important than one another.  

In looking for a way to express this, I came across this video, which perfectly shows and explains what I hope to do with my gifts, and how Michael has inspired this person to use hers.  It is beautiful, because she is playing her note perfectly!!!

Unlimited Love

This is a drawing that I did today.  It is very wintery and cold here, a sudden change of weather, and I could just not make myself go out and do the things that needed to be done, so instead I stayed home and drew Michael.  As I was drawing, and talking to him as I did, I thought about all the things that I have learned and done since he came into my life.   Finding my true self began with Michael leading the way.  In the last three years I have tried so many things that I had never done in the previous fifty.  Just this month I have learned to do a choreographed dance, something that up until two weeks ago, I would have never thought possible for me.   I have never done a drawing of a person before being inspired by all the budding artists in my Michael community.  I have written and published a book which is another dream come true for me.  Using the internet and computer were not part of my past life either.  The interesting thing is that these things I have done, not for me, but for Him.   In wanting to give him everything, it has somehow turned out to be that I have received more than I can ever give back.  That is how it works with Love.  The more you give, the more there is for everyone.  I am much braver than I used to be, and I know there is nothing to fear when it comes to giving and sharing from the heart.

Thriller Night

I am probably the only person on the planet who had not seen the Thriller video before 2009.

 I just found out about Thrill the World which takes place on the Saturday closest to Halloween each year since 2006.  It is a worldwide attempt to have the largest number of people dancing the same dance at the same time all around the world.  Each city or group had a charity that benefits from any donations.  When looking at the website I noticed there was a group registered in our city.  In checking it out further I found out the the dance takes place in the very same location where we chose to have our public Memorial for Michael.  Of course, this meant that Siren and I had to join in and do the dance.  We had 2 weeks to learn it.  On Friday, we watched the teaching videos for the dance, all 40 of them, and it looked like a completely impossible feat to learn the steps, the body movements, the timing.  I really thought that there was no way in the world I could ever do it.  Since then, over the last 5 days we have both been learning and practicing at home, for hours and hours, and it finally seems like it just might be possible.   Dancing a dance that Michael danced is sooo exciting, just to know that he learned those very same moves, although he probably learned them in 5 minutes and did them ten times faster that I ever will, it still makes me feel closer to him.

 I would never have expected myself to be interested in dressing up like a zombie and dancing in a public place.  Of course, whatever I don't know how to do, or don't think I'm capable of, or interested in, is just the thing, with Michael, that I find myself doing.  And enjoying.  And being so grateful for the expansion of my heart and body and mind and soul that he has brought into my life.

I will be dancing for Michael on October 27 at 7 PM GMT.   And that is why I will be spending the next ten days making sure I get it right!!

Wembley

Another Friday night all alone in a hotel room.  This time I got all my business done and out of the way so I could watch Wembley.  My little laptop was not big enough or loud enough for me, but I turned out all the lights and sat with my face 6 inches away and was mesmerized.  There are so many things that stood out for me, Michael's amazing energy, knowledge of every word and move, the obvious joy and fun he was having,  his beautiful face and body, his passion and feeling, the way he wanted to entertain and draw everyone in to the story he was creating, his childlike enjoyment of creating magic, it was wonderful.  How alive and vibrant he was, he was so open and honest and pure.  It all built up to a crescendo, with Man in the Mirror to bring it all together once everyone's heart had been opened to receive the message that we all have such incredible potential if we only believe in ourselves and take that first step.

I am so grateful for the people who were there that night, and all through his life.  The ones who saw him for the true pioneer, hero, genius, he was, and felt the purity and truth he emitted in everything he did.  I was too self absorbed to notice him then, but I am so happy to know that he was appreciated by so many.

I am grateful that we can now have this incredible treasure, and so many other still unknown to us, so that he will always be alive and fresh in our memories and our hearts, and be available for future generations to discover as we have.   I am grateful to the estate for ensuring Michael's legacy expands and grows for him, his children, and all of us as well as future generations.

When it was over I cried and cried and cried some more.  It was not a thinking process, it was pure emotion and feeling that overcame me.  That is the way of Michael, he gets past all the superficial stuff and changes you from the inside out.