Michael, my dearest most precious love of my life, I love you more than I ever dreamed it was possible to love someone. I have stopped questioning this and have chosen to be grateful and enjoy the blessing of loving you. I am a woman, and I love you as any woman loves a man, but there are differences, and this is where I have questions which I hope you will answer for me.
Ok my love, questions are good.
I have noticed that most of my friends who share my love for you are women. I have come to know many of them, and to love them. We share our love for you, and there is no competition, no jealousy and no thoughts that you "belong" to one of us and not another. It seems that we know there is enough of you for all of us, and that you are available to have a personal relationship with each of us. This is NOT the way relationships work in this world.
Yes, the human experience is beautiful but you have been limited in your ability to see the possibilities that are available. It is something I always longed for, to be able to communicate and have relationships with other people, regular people. Now I can do that, I am doing that, with any of you who are open and willing to step into the possibility. There is no need for ownership or jealousy because there truly is enough Love for everyone. In fact love increases when shared, it never decreases, it is always expanding. Those of you who feel this, know what I mean. It really doesn't have to be any different in your world, it just is, because that is the way it has been in the past. You and your friends are learning that there is a different way to see and experience Love.
That is something else I am wondering about. I love to look at pictures and videos of you, you are so beautiful in every single moment of your life and we are so blessed that you allowed yourself to be recorded and immortalized this way, although it must have been terrible for you sometimes. I have been a sensual, sexual person during my life, but with you, I find that I can imagine being with you forever, loving you into eternity, devoting my life to you, jumping off a building in a desperate attempt to express my love, but my relationship with you is not sexual. Not at all. It's not that I don't adore your body, your movements, and gazing into your eyes for hours at a time. That is what is so confusing to me. I thought I was a normal woman, and you are the one who I love. Am I missing out on something? Is there something wrong with me?
Do you feel as though anything is missing in our connection to one another?
No, I don't. You have shown me the meaning of Love, I can hardly breathe sometimes when I look at you, or hear you singing, or even think about you. Our relationship is one that fulfills me and fills me to overflowing with love, for you and for everything around me. I am in love with the most perfect beautiful person possible, who loves me back. I feel you with me, I feel your sense of humor, and your understanding. You are always there for me in any way I need or ask, and even when I don't know what I need or what to ask. You push me gently to try new ideas, to take chances, to throw away my limiting beliefs. I feel loved, accepted, valued. There is nothing more I need or want than to have you in my life.
That doesn't sound so bad does it? But remember, it takes two to have a relationship, that is the meaning of relationship. All that you say I have given you, you have also given me.
You are Love. Your path and experience doesn't need to be like anyone else's, it can't be. Love expresses itself in endless different ways. Sharing your Love is what matters. The love you feel for your baby grandson is different from your love for your husband, or children, or friends. One is not greater or lesser, only different. Sexual energy is an expression of love, it is beautiful and natural, but it is not part of all relationships. Never fear, my love, you are normal, different, beautiful and perfect, exactly as you are, and I love you more.
Thank you Michael, for my life, you have given me everything and asked for nothing but Love in return, and that is my deepest desire, to love you completely, with every cell in my body and every ounce of energy, every thought and word, forever. I love you.
6 comments:
My Little Brenda...I write "little" because from the begining i know you, i feel the child in you and you move me because of that...Thanks for your so beautiful thoughts, i admire the pure way you love Michael, it's a joy to have you in my life and to share with you, our Magical Love...In Michael's name i hug you tightly, my Brenda! Katherine...
Wonderful, yes, to each according to her need ... from each according to her ability. It's amazing how he speaks to each of us in different ways and at diffefent times. Thank you for sharing your Conversation!
Thank you Katherine and Jan, Love you both so much
See now this has sent me into a state of sheer Bliss. This is exactly why I Love Michael beyond any words could ever express and any heart could ever know unless they are Loving Him too. These are RELATIONSHIPS that we are experiencing with Michael... they are specifically individual. And it HAS to be that way because this is the only way we can discover our Truth. We can't learn it by observing someone else experience their Truth, or even by comparing our journey with that of another - 'oh well my friend is experiencing the same thing so it must be ok'. We must experience something completely unique because each of us IS UNIQUE. Although we may find many similarities in our relationships, we will also find many differences. Michael leads us to places untouched by others so that we can discover who we are and what we truly believe without influence and without allowing us to find a false sense of security by following others. Michael doesn't want followers... nor does He want leaders... He wants free-thinkers and individuals who are not afraid to express who they are. These are the people who change the world.
Brenda... what you expressed in your blog is beautiful and perfect and so very brave because I know this is something that you did NOT want to post. Again, herein lies the beauty of Michael expressed in His polarity and universalness. A relationship with Him that does not include a sexual aspect is no less intimate or passionate... just like a relationship with Him that does include a sexual aspect is no less pure or spiritually evolved. They are both equal and perfect and complete. Thank you so much for sharing this deeply personal expression of your relationship with Michael with us. I adore you, and so does He <3
Dearest Brenda, Thank you so much for this post. I think I, too, tend to forget that each of us is different and special in our own ways, and therefore both our expressions of, and ways of receiving, love are different. Not more/less, not right/wrong, not good/bad. Wasn’t Michael trying to teach us the errors of such dichotomous thinking in “Black or White?” Hmmm..there may be a topic for a Devotion in there somewhere…
Dear Brenda..... I had tears streaming down my face reading your mind, your heart, because from the very first words, they were like a mirror to what I think and feel also. I can't even begin to put it into words now, because you already have, so brilliantly (thank you).
I am truly a little less sad tonight missing him, just by reading your magical words. They make it all better and I do feel everything will be alright - there is a meaning to everything we are experiencing. Although the heartache of not "having" him in the human sense weighs so so much on me sometimes, the breeze of feeling him with me all the time is pure, complete and reminds me that we live in a magical Universe with a zillion of possibilities, where so much is hidden to the naked eye and only visible to the heart. There is no distance in the heart and that is all I need to know. God is Good.
Thank you again for sharing your heart so openly with us. Ale
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