Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I'm So Sorry


Dearest Michael,
I am so sorry that I was not there for you
No one was there
the most loved man on the earth
and you were all alone
How could this have happened?

My heart breaks again
for the lack of love
shown to you who gave everything

I am so sorry I wasn't there
or even aware
of who you were
and what you had done 
for all of us

When you left
you gave me life
and I selfishly celebrated my awakening
forgetting what it had cost you

Only now have I come to realize
the sacrifice you made for us

Please forgive me
Thank you
I love you

Monday, September 19, 2011

Flower Power - Call for Love Devotion Sept 20



     Daisies have always been my favorite flower.  When I got married at age 19, (yes it's true) I had daisies for my bouquet and on my wedding cake.  Everywhere I go, I notice them, and take pictures of them.  I don't know where this love began or why daisies make me feel so happy, but I know they do.  In all these years of loving daisies, I have never looked up the meaning behind them until today.  The flower symbolism associated with the daisy is purity, innocence, loyal love, beauty, patience and simplicity.  These are beautiful qualities, ones I don't always display myself, but ones that I admire.  




I remember hearing once, that flowers are the windows to heaven in the plant world, as babies and baby animals are in the animal kingdom, and crystals are in the mineral world.  Everyone loves flowers, babies, and crystals.  They are a symbol of all that is beautiful, fresh and pure. 



Next week, when the trial begins, I will be using daisies and sunflowers for my focus to send love to all involved, and all who are watching, and I will especially send love to those who will find this trial to be the beginning of their awakening to the truth of Michael.  I know there will be many of them, and when they come to Call for Love and other Michael pages and sites, searching for understanding as to what has happened to them, and wondering why they have suddenly developed such a devotion to Michael, we will be ready to welcome them on our journey to heal the world together, and make Michael's dreams come true.



Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Attitude - Call for Love Devotion September 14

"He cares about animals and nature,
 and he believes that with a positive attitude,
 we can have whatever we want."
Diana Ross, about Michael Jackson.


We have had lovely devotions focusing on gratitude this week already, so I have chosen to express my feelings about ATTITUDE!
Some people think they are like little boats being tossed around in the waves of life.  Others feel that they have control of the rudder of their little boat, steering it where they choose to go.  However you may feel about the workings of the universe, one think is sure.  Each of us had total control and choice about our attitude.  Our enjoyment of life, no matter what the circumstances or personal events may be, is in a large part decided by our attitude towards it.  If we feel that life is happening TO us, and we don't like what's happening, we can choose to have an attitude of resentment and anger, or we may choose to have an attitude of determination and strive for what we would like to see happen for us.  If we have everything we could ever want in life, we may have an attitude of smugness, or an attitude of fear of losing what we have, or we may have an attitude of giving, sharing and joy.  No one can force us to change our attitude, not by force, or by coaxing, unless we agree.  It is one thing that is always in our control, and it is also one thing that affects our enjoyment of life.
We all know examples of people who seem to have nothing, and are always joyful, as well as those who have all the material possessions imaginable and are miserable.  It is only their attitude towards their own life that differs.  Which one is truly blessed?
Michael is such a beautiful example.  He always had a positive attitude, never wavering in his faith of the goodness of people.  He always believed he could achieve his dreams, and he did.

One of the most important lessons we can teach our children is to have a good attitude.  They learn by watching us, so we would do well to pay attention to our own attitude in circumstances that come up, and see if a change would be beneficial to ourselves and those around us.  It's easy, once you try it a few times.  Next time someone upsets you, in traffic, in a store or restaurant, try smiling and sending them love, and keep your attitude positive.  The situation will be over in an instant, but your attitude about it can affect you for the rest of the day or longer.  What attitude will you choose?


Tuesday, September 6, 2011

One in Consciousness Devotion 7/9/11


I did not know Michael when he was here.  How is it then, that I have come to this place of having him be the centre of my life, my first and last thought each day, my focus whether I am in the grocery store, or on the top of a mountain?  I didn't meet him.  No one told me anything about him, or tried to convince me to learn about him.  It was Michael himself who reached out his hand to me on July 7, 2009 and opened my heart to a whole new world.  How could this happen?  It was mystifying to say the least, especially those first few months when I thought I was alone in this experience.  I didn't know how it had happened, but I knew that it had, and I KNEW for sure, who it had come from.


Every time I start to have doubts about my sanity, or wonder if I really am serving any useful purpose with my devotion to Michael, I only have to think back to that day, and remember that moment when his love filled me to overflowing.   I was not looking for him, I didn't know there was anything missing in my life.  He found me, he reached out to me, he filled me with love, and gave my life new meaning and purpose.  How did he do it?  I don't have the scientific answers, but to me, it was possible because we are actually One in Consciousness.


I now have many friends who feel the same about Michael, and who communicate with him, as I do.  None of us knew him personally, yet we have a connection that can not be denied, and through our love for Michael, we have developed a connection with each other.   We have awakened to our oneness.   One in consciousness.  We even seem to express similar thoughts, ideas, dreams at the same time.  The internet helps us to be able to see these synchronicities more easily.


We don't need to have physical bodies to be a part of this consciousness, in fact, bodies are probably a huge hindrance.  If we didn't have these bodies to contain our spirits, what would there be to keep us separate?  Nothing.  We would be pure consciousness.  Michael connects with all of us this way, because there really is nothing else.  One day, we will know much more about how this all works.  For now, it is enough for me to know that he is here, he loves us, and he is able to have a personal relationship with each of us, bringing out the best in all of us, for a purpose that is bigger than any of us can imagine.


I'll reach out my hand to you
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name, I'll be there



Thursday, September 1, 2011

Ripples of Love


Each of us
has so much to give
It's what we're here for
yet we hold back

Wondering
are we good enough
are we worthy
Who are we to be
what we imagine we could be

afraid of failure
afraid of success
afraid of change

Yet
if we try
if we listen
to the whisper
in our hearts

the joy
the love
will fill us to overflowing
beyond anything
we could ever have imagined

and maybe
by just saying yes
we will give someone else
the courage
to try

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Celebrating Michael in Service

It is such an honor to be a part of the MJ community.  There is so much love, awakening, giving, sharing, learning, and growing going on for all of us.  The birthday celebrations and projects are sure to have Michael smiling and twirling in joy and love.  I think he approves of us giving him the gift of doing our part to make his dreams come true.  Vaccinations, children's parties, money for orphans, children's homes, and so many more, as well as endless individual acts of love, all in his name.  It is a joy to be a part of.  Michael said,  "People sit at the table and pray, and that's beautiful, but doing something is the thing, we have to ACT."  I see that we are acting, as his advocates, devotees, emissaries of love, representatives, disciples, followers, students, gopis.  Whatever we call ourselves, we are carrying on Michael's work and wishes and with his guidance and inspiration, we are making a difference and changing the world.  He said, if each of us could help just one person, its a big step forward, because there's a lot to be done.  We hope you like all your birthday presents, Michael.  They are only a drop in the bucket compared to what you have given us.

My beautiful friend Siren, and I, spent the day together celebrating Michael on his birthday.  We had set the day aside, making arrangements to have the time free for our little trip to Banff and Lake Louise in the beautiful Rocky Mountains only a couple of hours from home.   Having lived here for so many years, we tend to take our local attractions for granted, but as I had planned to write about our day for my devotion, I was looking at everything through the eyes of all of you who have never been here and it helped me to appreciate the wonder of it.

We had planned to make Stones of Love for Michael and leave them at the top of Sulphur Mountain, where there is an old Cosmic Ray Station and a weather station.  Cosmic Ray, sounds so Michael like that we thought it would be a good place to go to celebrate him on his birthday.  There is a gondola that takes people to a big lookout station with a restaurant, and from there it is a bit of a walk to another peak where we planned to leave the stones.

Proudly wearing our Michael T-shirts, and knowing it was going to be a warm and sunny day, we forced ourselves to take time to stop for gas before we left the city.  As I waited to pay for my gas, I heard an older lady asking for help to put coolant in her car.  The cashier told her that the gas attendants are not allowed to do for her, as they are not mechanics.  Normally, I would not even think twice about the lady and her predicament, but being Michael's birthday, and wanting to ACT as he would, I offered to put the coolant in for her.  She was very happy to have my help, and as I was pouring it for her (hopefully into the right opening) I showed her my shirt and told her it was Michael's birthday and I was remembering him by helping her.   I think she thought I was a bit crazy, but she appreciated the help.   Feeling great for making the effort to do this small random act of kindness, we drove out of town and stopped at a drive through coffee shop in Canmore about an hour later.  This time we asked to pay for the order of the person in the car behind us.  This is something I have often thought of doing, but have never followed through on.  The cashier warned us that the lady's order was a big one, but we were excited to have the chance to give again.

On the highway again, we headed for Lake Louise, listening to Michael and catching up on all we had to share with no computer or telephone between us.  I highly recommend to everyone to find someone who lives close enough, or if not, make the effort to go and meet other Michael followers.  It is wonderful to be able to share feelings, thoughts, insights without holding back, or wondering if the other person thinks you are insane.  It is wonderful to have the time to get deeply into the conversation without having to sign off, or hang up, due to personal or business responsibilities.
We walked along the path at Lake Louise, Siren offering to take pictures for tourists and enjoying the beauty of the day, and then had lunch on an outdoor patio looking out over the lake.   Time was magically flying by, so we headed back to Banff, to the bottom of Sulphur Moutain to get on the gondola.  There were many, many people there, and we were probably the only Canadians in the waiting line.  There was a bus load of Japanese tourists, and people speaking French, German and other languages we didn't understand.   We got in a car with a Japanese couple, and with Siren keeping her eyes closed all the way,  rode above the trees, with the parking lot and town of Banff, fading away until there was nothing but tree tops and sky around us.  Soon we were being welcomed at the top.  We didn't stay at the main building where most of the tourists were, but started on our walk over to the Cosmic Ray Station.

Finding a spot where we could leave the main walkway, we looked for some nice flat stones, and sat on a big rock to enjoyed the sun and the view.  We got out our markers and our Dancing the Dream book and made our Stones of Love for Michael.  There are so many incredible quotes from Michael to choose from, it was tough to settle on only a couple.  I was imagining visitors walking up and reading one of our stones, and realizing that Michael is much more than they had realized.  Our only company was a little chipmunk who suddenly appeared standing between us on our rock.  Since we didn't have any food, he quickly lost interest in us, and disappeared into the rocks.   Times was magically flying by, and we gathered our markers and stones and headed back to the walkway to go up to the top of the lookout.  We tucked our stones along the way, where they could be seen, but hopefully not disturbed too easily.   It was getting cloudy, windy and cooler as we reached the Cosmic Ray lookout point.  We put our last stones, along with a birthday card for Michael under the steps of the weather station cabin.

At the very top of the lookout point, it was very windy.  We were waiting to be alone, as there was one more thing we wanted to do for Michael's birthday.   Finally, we just couldn't wait any longer, and in spite of the other few people around, we shouted out together "We love you Michael"  into the wind.  Just then, as we looked at the clouds, there was a heart shaped opening with light streaming through.  Siren snapped a couple of pictures, and then it was gone.  Hugging each other, and having done what we came to do, we hurried back down to the top of the gondola, half afraid that the wind would cause it to be closed and we would have to walk down the mountain in the dark.  No worries, it was much calmer when we got there, and we were soon zooming down the mountain.  A quick dinner in Canmore, lots of conversation and music all the way home, and before we knew it, our day was over.  It was like a time warp, one day of a different life, which we can hold in our hearts, along with Michael.  Just something else to be grateful to him for.  My intention is to continue to Celebrate Michael in Service, not only for his birthday, but as my ongoing gift to him, to myself, and to the world.

I have posted an album of pictures on my facebook page for anyone who would like to see them.
Celebrating Michael Aug29/11

Monday, August 22, 2011

One in Love

Nothing real can be threatened
Nothing unreal exists
Herein lies the Peace of God






This quote is from the introduction to A Course in Miracles.  I think if we could really understand the truth of these words, we would actually become enlightened beings, finally remembering who we truly are.  Everything in the physical world can be threatened, so if the above statement is true, it must mean that the physical world is not real.  What is there that can not be threatened?  The only thing I can think of is Love.  I know for sure, that nothing can change my love for Michael, my love for my children, my family, the planet, the joy of giving to others.  No one can touch that, no matter what is going on in the physical world.  Michael said, when we're gone, all that's left is the love.  


During the upcoming trial, I would like to ask you all to join in the intention of holding this space, Call for Love, to be truly loving.  If we can remember, even during the difficult time ahead, that only love is real, we can have an actual healing effect on the proceedings, or at least provide a safe, caring place for us to come to be filled up with love to face the day again.  Let other places handle the discussions, the pros and cons and controversy, anger and indignation.  We can blanket Call for Love, with love and only love, for our own sake, for Michael's sake, For the sake of peace on earth.  There is so much more at stake than the outcome of one trial, however important that trial seems to be.


What is at stake is the credibility of us as Michael's voices, hands, feet, and ears in this world.  Our behavior during the trial will affect the future of our work for him.  It will affect how the outside world views him, and us, and takes us as a serious force of change or not.  Can we stand together, outside the courthouse with Sunflowers as our symbol of unity, peace and love for Michael.  Can we stand together on our one small facebook page and spread the word of love for everyone, even those who appear to be unworthy of our love.  What would Michael do?  He would tell us that we are all One in Love with Him, forever.  It's the only thing that's real.